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Sunday 21 November 2010

I need to get rid of my curves. They are dirty, parasitic and the reason everything bad happens.

Last night I stayed at my friend's house. This morning I woke up to him stroking me everywhere, my hands my boobs my stomach my bum, hands trying to make their way down my leggings. I just lay there and pretended to sleep some more till he'd finish. He's one of my best friends, I saw him as my brother. Now I don't know.

I feel dirty. I won't eat until the reason behind this is gone. Bones are disgusting. Bones aren't beautiful. And that's why I need to be able to feel every single one.

Maybe if I can feel my bones, and I look as ugly as I feel, people won't pay me attention like that anymore.

I don't want to play flirty games anymore. I'd never even flirted with him before. I just don't see him like that. I haven't told Jacob. Only Jess knows. And now you.

I feel hollow.

7 comments:

  1. Slap him! friends are not supposed to touch you like that. he is in the wrong not you. take care.

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  2. i say distance yourself some from him. but before of course like everyone else has said, i'd give him a good ol' face slap.

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  3. It is never your fault. Your body is never at fault.

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  4. thats not ok! if you don't want him to do that and only see him as a friend, he is NOT allowed to do that! be strong, girl. if he tries that shit again punch him in the nuts. lol

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  5. That's a horrible thing to have to experience but this guy does not sound like a friend. I would stay as far away from him as possible and don't let that creep make you feel like this ! You deserve to feel beautiful and guys like that have no right to make you feel cheap. Oh, if I was there I would kick him where the sun don't shine ! xxxx

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  6. I'm so sorry that happened!! He doesn't sound like a friend at all. You should stay away from him.
    Oh, I truly hope you're feeling okay.
    <3

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  7. That guy is a total ass, oh my word he is no friend after he does something like that.

    And you listen here, you should not blame yourself at all for that sleazeball's behaviour, you did NOTHING wrong!

    Your body is not some implicit offer and "curves" give no one has the right to violate you like that.

    I hope you are okay and not being hit hard by this incident. What he did was completely wrong and you shoul feel zero fault in it.

    Thinking of you
    Xxxxx

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