Hypocritical Musings of Yet Another Selfish Teenage Girl.
Tuesday, 13 September 2011
I'm Done.
Making the effort. Caring. Hating my dad. Loving my dad. Eating. Purging. Starving. Sleeping. Nightmares. Being Awake All The Time. Being A Good Person. Not Knowing What I Want. Blogging. Not Blogging.
Being Confused.
... I wish I wasn't so confused. I'm still here, I've just lost myself. I'll comment on you all soon, I promise. Sorry for being such a shit blogger. Thank you to those who still love me.
Don't blog, talk to someone instead. You say you have a boyfriend. Talk to him. Because seriously, having a whole blog dedicated to anorexia just glorifies it. You wouldn't want your little sister or cousin sister or close friends to be influenced by something that can ultimately lead to death would you? You would rather they talk about it. So find a safe outlet that doesn't harm you or others. And you're not fat or overweight, but you're still harming yourself like an overweight person is harming themselves. Too much or too little is bad. So just eat and keep it in, but don't overeat. Take a little step at a time.
As for parent issues. Everyone has to deal with that. From parents that have no reason to be hated and parents who deserve to be hated. Find someone who won't be bias and talk to them. If you feel your dad deserves to be given a chance, give him a chance.Try not to jump on a love or hate wagon. Take everything a small step at a time.
I hope you find yourself again. It doesn't sound good so maybe you need to take some time and find out what you really want and what is important to you.
Take your time. Blog/don't blog. Do what you need to do. Always put yourself first. You'll be okay, whatever you decide.
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i feel the same
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my "dad" is being a nightmare i dont think i could hate him anymore
keep strong
much love
xx
Don't blog, talk to someone instead. You say you have a boyfriend. Talk to him. Because seriously, having a whole blog dedicated to anorexia just glorifies it. You wouldn't want your little sister or cousin sister or close friends to be influenced by something that can ultimately lead to death would you? You would rather they talk about it. So find a safe outlet that doesn't harm you or others. And you're not fat or overweight, but you're still harming yourself like an overweight person is harming themselves. Too much or too little is bad. So just eat and keep it in, but don't overeat. Take a little step at a time.
ReplyDeleteAs for parent issues. Everyone has to deal with that. From parents that have no reason to be hated and parents who deserve to be hated. Find someone who won't be bias and talk to them. If you feel your dad deserves to be given a chance, give him a chance.Try not to jump on a love or hate wagon. Take everything a small step at a time.
I hope you find yourself again. It doesn't sound good so maybe you need to take some time and find out what you really want and what is important to you.
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