Sunday, 5 December 2010


I don't know if I can carry this blog on any longer. 

Jacob found it. He was scanning through my emails on hotmail and decided he wanted to know what my blog is about. He read a lot, and we argued. 

I feel like my privacy has been violated. Not because it was him in particular who found it, but just because it was found. He says he won't read it anymore, because he doesn't want to know anymore than he's already found out. But now my blog has been discovered. It's like my blog has suddenly become a part of the real world, and I hate it.

Jacob went through a stage of drinking vodka every day. Now I'm sat here at 11.56 AM halfway through a bottle of vodka. I'm going to his house for a sunday roast soon.

I'm just so fucking tired of all of this.

Now if I'm feeling like cutting, I'm worried to post it.  Honestly, what would you do?


  1. I would be way pissed that it got read.
    I'm not sure but I think you can change the name of your blog so it can't be found anymore or something :S I've never done it but I've seen people do it when their blogs get found.

    You would be missed very much if you disappeared :(


  2. if mine was found i would shut it down and restart it, because although he said he won't read it again i would be afraid that curiosity might get the better of him... but that is just me and my untrusting ways.

    loveyou darlin'

  3. If my blog was found, I would certainly delete it and start another one.

    I could not imagine anyone in my real world reading this. It would change everything cause I would be unable to write down my deepest feelings etc and I could no longer be completely honest.

    Good luck

  4. Aw! I'm sorry that happened! I'd either rename it or delete it and make an entirely new one. How did he get on your e-mail??

  5. I understand completely. its like you love it while its a secret, but once it becomes public you feel weird and on edge about it. Maybe delete it and tell him you've paused on the blogging for at least a while, and then if you feel like you need to still blog, make a new one. that may make his suspicions go down about it.

  6. i think i'd delete and start over

  7. i wouldnt delete it but id start a new blog


  8. i hope you dont leave us. but if you do, perhaps you could start a new one? a fresh start, a new secret? it is up to you, but i do hope it gets better between the two of you.


  9. if i remember, which i probably will, i will comment whenever i post. and yayy! im glad you're staying! blargh-- i am *not* beautiful. im a fatass who just binged, and will be going for a run. ... now.

    stay lovely. <3


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