Time: 2120.
Weight: 132.6
Weight this morning: 132.8
That means, that even though I've eaten around 800 calories today, I've lost weight!
Maybe, for the first time in a long time, I'll see less that 132lbs tomorrow morning.
I haven't been purging, I just haven't been eating.
I've been slacking off of exercising, but I'm fixing that.
Swimming tomorrow ):
I'm not going to be trying to fast any time soon, because I know it'll cause a binge, but I think I'll restrict more and more and more. Because then I'll be fasting for days on end, because it's habit, not because I'm forcing myself to.
In regards to my last entry - I haven't lost it yet >.<
I'm panicking though.
It's happening this week.
And I'm currently fat.
Oh Fuck.
I love love love seeing the number on the scale go down, you can do it :)
ReplyDeletehey, welldone. i also love seeing the number on the scale go down. i'm happy for ya.
ReplyDeletethankyou for your comment babe.
i'm so happy you understand what i'm going through. my biggest fear is that everyone in school finds out.i'm scared if a friend questioned me about it, i'd have no way to get out of it, because 1) if i dont show them, they automatically know there are cuts. 2) if i do, then they think i'm crazy and tell everyone.
ps, i have stopped cutting, its been about a year, but the scars are still here to haunt me. :(
have a good day hun. xx
Down down down... remember, THE END OF MAY... PUBLIC TIME. If that doesn't scare the shit out of you, I don't know what will.
ReplyDeleteIt's certainly scared the shit out of me, bah.
Home tomorrow, weighing self, alone all weekend, weighing self, blah blah blah.
My phone's dead, again, and I'm having a minor break from 'real life' and existing purely in the world of the internet... BRB (to real life) soonnnnn.
BUT regardless of my non-replying to texties, etc, TEXT ME AND TELL ME WHEN YOU LOSE IT.
Yes? Yes.
And points system... I'll work something out, Turkey.
Turkey Wurky.
LOL.
Jess <3s Turk 4EVAAAAAA innit.
I've been incredibly Essex today. My accent's back in proper styleee, mate.
Love, love, love and BE SAFE.
xo