Survey thing (stolen :))

Hi girlies. Just thought I'd mix it up a bit, seeing as though I refuse to weigh myself until monday. It's a survey thing I stole from Behind the Fat's blog, hope she doesn't mind!

Size: UK 8-10 (US 4-6)

Age: 16
Highest Weight: 143lbs
Lowest Weight: 129lbs
Goal Weight: 98lbs. It's a beautiful number :)

Favorite Diet Food?
Probably avocado salad. Or a leafy salad with extra balsamic vinegar :)

Favorite Binge Food?
Carbs. Point blank, carbs.


Favorite Exercise?
Gymnastics! Or weights.


Thinspo?
It helps a lot :) but I like cutting out my own pictures from magasines, fatspo helps a lot too!


What Makes You Slip Up?
If I don't constantly think, or if I start feeling too comfortable, I slip.


What Makes You Strong?
My boyfriend, and being as competitive with other people as possible. Even if they don't know it :)


When Did It Start?
Around year 9. So about 13 years of age.


Does Anyone Know?
An ex teacher, and one close friend. Counsellors don't count right?


Do You Want Help?
Help yes, but only if it's help to make me thinner.


How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
Around 400.


What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?
  I see me, for the fat person I really am. I see the person I hide away from everyone else.


Are You In A Relationship?
Yup


Is It For Attention?
  Kind of, but only from my mum. I want her to start being a mum again y'know? But it's becoming more and more a case of me not caring about my mum, and me just wanting to achieve perfection and be someone to look up to.

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?
Kind of in the middle. I want to be the thin one.


Are You Depressed?
Been diagnosed. So yeah.


Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
Twice >.<


Ever Been To A Psychologist?
Yeahh. It's a load of bollocks really.


Are You On Any Medication?
Nope. I refuse :)


I AM -
[ ] anorexic
[ ] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[ ] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100lbs
[x] starving myself
[x] participating in a fast
[ ] vegan


PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
[ ] have tried to stop me


I WISH -
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was prettier
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend
[ ] I could disappear


I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[] shaking
[x] being weak (but strong at the same time)
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself


I HATE -
[x] when people stare
[ ] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[ ] being single
[ ] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[x] fat people


I NEED -
[ ] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[] more friends
[ ] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[x] a gym membership
[ ] to lose 50 lbs
[x] to lose 30 lbs
[ ] to lose 10 lbs 




So there you have it ladies, that's me. Let's hope one day I can retake this test and know that I've achieved all I've ever wanted.

Ciao for now girls, think thin and remember: Twigs Can Fly :)

Hazel.