Your Voice Has Chased Away All The Sanity In Me

Eat to block it out, you know you can't face being empty

The world is out to get you, don't tackle this gently

You're a failure, you're scum. You'll never get through this

It doesn't matter how many times she can show you how to do this

At her mercy, you succumb to her will

Purging and starving, cutting deeper yet still

You're useless you see, you've signed over all rights

This life is no longer yours to live.

***

Meh. Spur of the moment. A kitten died in my arms last night; her name was Janey and she was only 4 weeks old. Runt of the litter. I was going to take her home, to nurse her better. But I noticed something was really wrong and tried to give her some lactol. She drank a lot - but then she stopped breathing.

Last night my dad called too. When I told my mum I didn't want to talk to him, she told me to stop thinking I was better than everyone else. To stop being so selfish and petty. I don't mean to be - it's just that I won't let him ruin my life again. As if there's any life left for him to ruin.

I'd forgotten Prince's laugh, of all things. But I went video searching and found it. I miss him a lot.

This has been a very selfish post, and I'm sorry.