White Noise.

It seems that no matter how hard I try to escape, it's impossible.

The noise in my mind is the loudest of all the noises. I've been trying so hard to stop being ill, to start being normal. But the voices inside my head, the screaming is more than I can take.

How can it be so difficult to eat guiltlessly, like a normal person? It's seems we're the fly, and this stupid disorder spectrum is the venus fly trap. It doesn't matter how hard we try to get out - not many of us can escape.

There's no such thing.

But maybe one day the trap will die? And, maybe one day, we can learn how to live again.

No body does.