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Monday 8 February 2010

He Found Out.

I'm not sure if y'all remember me mentioning Lorenzo in a post a few months ago. Probably not, it's cool cause I don't talk to him anymore. I hate him. He makes me so angry.

Back in December I failed to mention that I got extremely drunk at Grace's house. Lorenzo came over, and at some point he kissed me. The worst part is that I don't even remember the night.
I told my boyfriend last night. It came up in conversation, he asked me if I'd ever cheated. I didn't lie. I couldn't lie. Now he wont talk to me. Now I'm in pieces.

I haven't gone into college today. I need to get my threading done. I need to do a french essay. I need to revise for my french oral exam. I need to hide.

Yes this is an extremely selfish post... but I feel as if I'm being broken into thousands of different pieces. Sharp pieces. But I won't cut myself with these sharp pieces.

Maybe if I work hard enough, my boyfriend will trust me again. Maybe if I try hard enough to eat, to not self harm, he'll remember how much he loves me again.

But maybe I'm not good enough anyways.

2 comments:

  1. maybe you could try the well i was honest and told you route

    i really hope it works out just let him know how much you wish it never happened

    x

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  2. awww that's tough! I agree with raindrops though...tell him u just care so much about him that you had to be honest and that trust is really something you want to earn back:) I'm sory this happened :( stay strong little lady!

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